dirty linen

...........okay i admit i have done ,and still doing things that am not really proud of but the funny thing is i have done them for the longest time that am convinced they're a part of me. am listening to RIHANNA's half of me , and it got me reflecting on the life of an upcoming artist to until being a super recognized star, its not an easy road not for only females but generally. all the ass kissing to the producers , event organizers , stupid unpaying events yet in all this we give it our best.

i hate the fact that being an artist is one ofthe looked down careers anyone would probably advice you to do, and tryna change the traditional mentality about USAANI being  just a hobby along side the office job you go to school to study for,is not easy . over the years thou i cant deny  its a bit better now, and like all professions being an artist is as stressing as any other good shit people may refer too.

going back to the things we do to get to  the top for instance being forced to screw someone for that deal you think is what you really need, sleeping hungry just to save up that fare or to buy that shoe you think shall add to your status quo, oh! not forgetting the odd jobs we do just to get that mullah to pay the studio and , and, and .......

i ones had to starve literally for three days because i was saving up for fare , i had this rehearsal i was attending to,and ended up getting only 300 at the day of the show ,the event organizer claimed the turn out wasn't great bla bla ....

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freaky weekend

So i have been working on a spoken word video , should be releasing it this week but i must worn you thou, being the first video that i actually had to show a bit of explicit emotions ,am surely terrified about peoples' or other words critics views but well as an artist there things we are meant to act like they don't hurt us. but the truth of the matters is we are perfectly humans.

every artist is there to sell a fantasy , that's how we get to idolize these so called stars . i asked a friend of mine why she loves beyonce so much , and for a second there i thought she would  say something like this"i love her voice, or may be shes a very talented artist" ........   oh!  well..........[. "i would love to live her life , she is just perfect," ]so that was her respond.... and it got me thinking , its not just about the talent but what people feel when they see you.

more than ever am worried about the picture i paint, being the careless freak i am, acting so hardcore hehe and so on and i wonder is that worth emulating .

in a young girl's or boy's mind who am i? or rather who will i be, is it our duty as a star, mega stars , celebs name them , to be a mirror to the society? aint this hard work ? because am thinking being an artist is like being a doctor there all professions , yet we both dwell in different time lines .

so my question is ..... HOW DO I MAINTAIN BEING A STAR AND STILL BEING PERFECTLY HUMAN???

@viralSouls

GOD AM ABOUT TO KILL SOMEBODY

GOD am about to kill somebody.

why are you gonna step on me
and wait for my apology,
why are you gonna lie to me
and act so justified
can somebody explain to me
why its my fault , to love and not get love
in return,
why are you gonna be unfaithful
and tell me baibe you know i love you ,right.?
why you gonna blame me for not getting my shit together
while you gonna run around chasing wind
blow some ash because you think you cooler than me
can somebody explain to me,why i have to trade my body
for a plate of food
you better make me understand
mhmmm because ! GOD am about to kill somebody
why do i have to dress up sexxy to impress anybody
why are you gonna act so holy when things go wrong
aint we all tired of the pretense.
why do i have to treat you right while you do none of that
aint i human ? i cant cry , because big girls don't cry
what you trying to say that am over weight?
you all make me sick, its so easy to be on the wrong but not different
so what if i don't like sugar in my tea
so what if i don't like men
so what if i think the world is flat
so what if i think your opinion doesn’t count
so what if am better than you
so what ,so what ,so what........................

a night with the stars

good afternoon???.........am not surprised that my life is taking another turn ,well i knew this was bound to happen, what really strikes me isthe fact that am not whatsoever interested in what all stars seem to be getting. i dont mean fame and money and not forgetting the fucking awesome attention noooo ! i mean who wouldnt want all that? i just really want freedom, the luxury this so called stars dont have . yesterday at the PULSE INDUSTRY NIGHT , was covered with plastic smiles accompanied with fake poses here and there , trust me you would kill to stop the world and spanks this guys and remind them theres no rehearsal inthis life we living, but then again just like sales persons need to convince you that their product is what you really need ,this stars got to do what they got to do.......... i loved the night thou, the camp mullah reUNION just young guys killing it on stage ,presentation,performance wise its the missing link kenyans are looking for.